WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

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I was driving to work the other day, and I kept thinking, “What is wrong with me?” I couldn’t put my finger on what was wrong. It really bothered me. I turned off my audio book and started taking inventory of my body. It took me awhile to realize that what was wrong was that I was not feeling any pain; I did not have cold symptoms; my eyes were not dry; my mouth was not dry; I was not exhausted; my back did not ache; and, I did not have any stomach issues. In other words, I felt fine. That hit me like a brick. I have been so use to being in pain or having a number of other issues that feeling fine felt like something was wrong. I immediately jumped to the conclusion that this was the calm before the storm. That the “big one” was going to hit me.
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I would give anything if I could bottle up that feeling of being fine and bring it out whenever I am in the midst of a flare-up. I would give anything to be able to recreate that feeling of fine. I racked my brain trying to figure out what I had done or not done that may have caused me to feel this way, brief as it was. I looked at my diet, stress, changes to my medications, changes to my lifestyle, sleep patterns and more. Do you know what? As a friend says, “I got nothing.” I have no idea why I felt fine. I do know that I spent so much time trying to figure out how to recreate this feeling, that I forgot to truly embrace and enjoy feeling fine again. Funny how that happened. Sometimes, I have to be kicked by a mule several times before I get it.
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I am new to the world of Rheumatoid Arthritis. I was diagnosed with it in 2014. I have read about people who have struggled with this awful disease since childhood and my heart goes out to them. I am still learning so much about the disease and about me. If there is a take away from all this, it is that I need to live in the moment (especially if that moment is pain free). I need to embrace these moments.
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May you all have days where you too feel fine.

2 thoughts on “WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

  1. This: “I would give anything if I could bottle up that feeling of being fine and bring it out whenever I am in the midst of a flare-up.” is called anchoring in the NLP and it is easy to learn.

    All the best to you

    Laureen

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    1. May your flare-ups be few and far between…

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